..2011 - it's gonna get harder!

yeah, i'm sorry of my laziness typing on my blog.

i should've put pictures within that gap but there's so many things
to handle and i would love to sleep more than typing a few minutes.
(too lazybum ayt?)

oh well with the start of the year I have been facing some challenges
that I'm new at. With regards to me and Cj - it's all up's and down but
simply amazing handling things out with us.
we're much stronger and sooner it's gonna be our 2 yrs together
and that implies how good we are with each other despite those
silly fights we have.

in my family - -- this is a long story to tell but in this house,
everything is getting bigger, renovation and challenge at the same time

tita kat and me are graduating this year so let's hope for the best!
--->this is just the start!

i gotta feeling this year is "TOUGH", and with that I want to
pat myself to be strong and be healthy!

what's more scary than living like this?

There comes a time where I want to escape with everything I had now.

I have this sick feeling almost everyday.

It's getting worse and I can't do anything to it.

I tried to solve it on my own and give solution as much as posible to remain ok even though I'm broken already.

This doubts, fear, trouble I had now is more bigger than

anything, anything I've ever encountered.

I don't want them to understand me.

Perhaps they really gone mad at me for trying to understand.

They probably think I'm pushing them away from me,

But in this journey - I know it's ONLY me who can help myself.

Help - it's everywhere I look and turn!

But when can I actually learn and do things on my own?

Even how helpless I might be now..

I still don't like talking about what's on me, what's stopping me

to be happy and be almost normal.

Have a little faith...i could still make it!

every moment is at stake,

so I'll do my best to make it just how i wanted it to be!

GAPS and in Between..

hard to start all of this all over again so i'll be filling huge gaps

between the last post I had till today.

There's so many things happened back there and I'm now so lazy to

recall it back..*Sorry

I don't know - I didn't feel like typing back there

and whatever that reason was, be my guest to guess hehe ;)

But I think I'll have to post my bday though *winks

That was quite memorable actually and I have few photos

to explain and it was a tragedy at the same time happiness celebration.

Well it's a start again of some post here.

Honestly, I miss this too.

But this time I won't do alot of it till i had my defense

on our thesis this week.

It's a BIG day so goodluck on me!!

go! go! go!

so..i was just tired.

so it was supper dupeer long story to tell what the hell just happened to me

since it was midterm exam.

I had a hell of days and weeks to be honest.

A fracture of mine wants to blow now.

Perhaps I am already tired of how things happened.

I can't blame no one or a thing because my life

has been like this since I knew the "hard" word itself.

wanna know briefly what happened?

HERE:

- I fought alot actually.

- I get pissed a hundred times.

- I was forced to do things I don't.

- I lose my temper to Cj.

- I cried gallons of tears.

- I didn't remember any of my friends to txt.

- I suddenly felt not listening to my classes.

- I talk with my mom with always a bad signal- stupid phone!

- Tita kat get hospitalized - and I look after her.

( I tell you she's not so easy to look after for she can demand everything!!)

-Joan finally give birth and while i just arrived in

the hospital, tita kat asked me to go back for she wanted to get hospitalized too!

- My brain went freak!

- I needed to had some absents - which gives me a

horrible situation in school.

- I didn't sleep much and well.

- My eyes got a ring of black and poping out!

- Dry skin. Dry mind. Dry hair - sh***

- Pissed by how my patient wants junky in the middle of the night!

- Got wet by the rain twice in the middle of the night and at 3am

for that pantyliner and greenwich!

- too messy house no one will clean except me ofcourse.

- cousins fighting!

so did you think I collapse in that?..

no, actually not.

I felt to do it..but no seriously it'll worsen everything

if I give up already.Tire

all of them were finish and there's nothing

to whine or get mad anymore.

I'M JUST TIRED.

exhausted but still doing what I do after.

Tired but you cannot do anything if you stop moving because

you are tired.

I know, sounds crazy - maybe I am.

Well one month to go I'm sensing my birthday is

not so happy this year.

date before midterm!~

ohhlala i feel a lot better now Cj came here this sunday :)

I think I'll have a full-charged energy to prepare for my midterm!! yoshh!

we had our lunch at Graceland!

got some *Lechon Kawali with **Bicol express and ***Pork Adobo.

(we had pork today because both of us had Fish and veggies the whole weekdays)

this huge turtle-shaped bread we bought for breakfast along with pandesal

fascinate us on how we're going to eat it~

before watching "the expandables" movie..
acting angelina jolie huh? lol

*this is a pork deep fried to crisp and one of the best dish i love

**original recipe of Bicolanos or "people from south Luzon" which is usually small shrimp spiced and saute in garlic and onion with coconut milk and simmer hmm yum!. This is really really spicy!

***Filipino's delicacy. Every Filipino knows how to cook it. With hundred of versions but very delicious - a must try for foreign people^^

eye defect (0.o))

I was scheduled to get my glasses today.

The other week I have to cancel it due to the delay of our program to be

be passed at exactly 6pm so the clinic was closed already.

The doctor texted me to come by anytime I'm free because

it was already paid and so no hassle.

But seriously it took 4 days before I got this XD
I think I was pretty scared how thick it was going to be!!
My left eye gotten worse and the right is starting to be bad so he really insist
me on wearing this in school or whenever I'm on the screen doing my
thing or even watching TV's so here I am goofing around(As always)
and wearing it on the first day^^