sleepless..

..78% still downloadung PRINCE OF PERSIA
I wonder what time it'll be over?..

reminisce 2008

this was very memorable..not just because me and mama are holding those beers and we're drunk! no no i didn't drink it..its a show-off for fun only haha!

Memorable because Catajusan-Hodgetts were still complete and we're having fun I
guess it's an escape on what reality was. A day in Pineapple resort - who wouldn't
enjoy right?..dad was there, all my sisters and little brother we're reunited for
the 2nd time.

I was still weak here. You can see my face laughing but I am worried all the time
thatI will make another mistake again and get mama mad. And I was right after
all, I accidentaly bring home the resort's towel and they won't let mama to leave
the resort as long as we didnt took it back. Mama was scary to me all the time when
she start to raise her voice..it was always been like that.

Oh 2008...it was 2 years ago. I'm thankful I learned alot now..

darating din kayo sakin..just wait there i'm making a room for all of you!
cj won't do any harm..i promise!

pray for a Hello Kitty hat~

along with ai-chan this kitty hat i found in
Naga was the last piece *lucky!..
I better take a photo of it before..
oh no why am i thinking this(to loose it)?

I'll do my best not to misplace it - good heavens not this one!

atually a girl found it first before me,.and when i saw she was holding it,
i was really praying that she won't get it! wew! good thing He's listening that time..heres the story:

girl: may red po ba?

saleslady: wala na po ma'am. last piece na po yan.
(pchan was just at the other closet behind them sa may accesories
and friggin nervous...*praying3x)

girl: hmmm..discount

saleslady: no ma'am it's already 20% off na po.
(pchan mind: yeah sale na akin nalng! e2 accesories nalang sau)

girl: ok.
(pchan looks down. "hay bagal kasi paa ko mglakad")
i thought she's gonna get it.

saleslady: thank u mam. come again

[girl went out..i saw the hat was on saleslady's hand..
i ran and grabbed it.]

saleslady: *shocked! sa counter nalng po mam. its the last piece!

pchan: i know. ok ok ok i'll pay na. ok na yan. hehehe
(my heart was beating fast haha)

Powers or Luck?

di ko na matandaan kung kelan ko pa ginagawa ang pagpredict
or more like i wish on it, and it happens!

i remember when i was 3rd year high school i use to wish a
heavy rain so we won't have classes and i'll be at home and
get some rest. I asked who God or even believe in God of Rain
thunder and wind to listen on my prayers or wish.

and from then on as far as I could remember it will happen
just like what I prayed for! I don't believe either at the first
time I did it. More like "nagkataon lang yun cgurado"...

And years pass and I felt like I was heard all the time.
Yes, I use it when I really need it or someone ask me and it's
worth to do. I won't lie I did wish for someone to get wet haha!
Well I tried to tell them it will rain even the sun is up and on
its peek in the sky it'll happen. Most of my friends and family
know this. hahaha so I wanna ask if I had a power o luck lang talaga..
and worse I can stop the rain or make a storm move away if I wish too.
hehehe but now I don't ask alot..baka masanay kawawa na si xy~

this afternoon, cj asked me to pick him up because his father was
sleeping and they have no motorbike to get home so i went off with
joan as I get her in their house.
I was praying don't let the rain wet us. And it did!
believe me it's raining really hard when we were still in the house and
once I step out in the house the sun went out but the sky was dark still.
and joan was amazed so was I!..

(di bah andun ung itim sa likod lng)

and when we're about to go home (me, cj and rap(cj's bro) they were scared
of the dark clouds hehe there's a lightning too hahaha!
oh my kung saan kami dadaan dun ang maliwanag! heheh nasa likod lang namin ung super
itim na ulap!

3 Months to go..!

a new angel will soon come on us,..though i love all my little sisters
and brother we'll have another one on his/her way soon~

I can't wait to see him/her soon and let's see how does it feels to be
an aunt..naks tita nako haha! 20yrs old - not bad to be tita right?..
tita kat nga 2 years old tita na dahil sakin! Yayu will be tito na din
hahhaaha and he's 2 yrs old also~..

here's the soon to be mama and tita.

A Long Thought..pretty long forgiveness

Forgive the sinners. Yes, it's one of those things people won't do all the time. Some say only a pure heart can do it, but I guess limiting what's pure or not is not the reason for everyone not to forgive. Consider God gave us the same heart and mind that beats and think - there's no way that only few can do it. You and me - we are capable!

When I see people who can't forgive others, I knew they can't forgive themselves too. It's a sad scenario to look, it's like a virus that slowly kills how good we are, it's curable yet people desired not to try. They think it's ordinary that time will only tell when to forgive, it's about how big or small the mistakes are and then you can tell or estimate when you will have it. What's with the measurement nowadays that it always matters when you've done something good or bad? To think that everyone made mistakes, we hurt someone too(don't dare to say we don't once in a while!?), hell, I know measurements are very appreciated in accuracy of things and whatever that do with math and calculation - but geez it doesn't mean you always have to measure mistakes, love, friendship, and other aspects in life that gave us the reason to enjoy living. It's the border of calculations and measurement!

As we are in the ground of pain from betrayal, misfortune, attack, heartbreaks, etc.,we became mad in the world, we linger on things or people that might heal whatever pain we can't manage otherwise we often seeks revenge or even destroy who we are. Can you see something good here? Nothing. I know some things can't be done in a rush, because sometimes it's the reason why it ends in worse. Perhaps forgiving is not on that list, because I see people damaged by it everyday. The longer it takes the bigger the damage. We are scared of getting hurt by someone but unfortunately we make the same thing too.

People were used into giving 2-3 chances not to make it again or hurt them or you'll be kicked out in someone's life like a stranger pretending you don't know anything at all. Doesn't it make you look like a fool in that? Boy oh boy! No matter how you wish you got amnesia to lost all those memories you had together, I'm sorry you can't take it back. You always know that person and you'll always do no matter how you tell your brain not to. Silly for us sometimes after days, months or years when we finally learn to forgive and realize things were not bad as we thought before, it's not that serious or it's not worth to fight for then we come with this face shy and eager to make happy memories again when everything felt like it will never happen again. You swear not to talk, smile even see that person but here you are giving hugs and chatting how each other have been and what you missed in his/her life. Silly right? rather fascinating! After dictating to yourself you won't forgive and forever hate that person, you'll soon realize it's not the right thing to do.

Why can't we make it in a short period of time or just a day after the confession was made and admits that he/she was wrong and sorry? I can't blame them, right? It's what we usually do, it's what we see while growing. We sure don't appreciate "sorry" nowadays. I believe it's not just a word you would always say, it's a word that tells he/she knows he/she made mistakes and hurt you but was also hurt that he/she have done it to you or a realization of mistakes and a key for your forgiveness. A change for this idea is a good vote for me. If God can do it; we can definitely make it. There is no comparison between God and people capabilities with this matter but we have this heart that is limitless in loving. Love creates this.

Try it! It's a peace in mind, a good medicine for your heart, a food for your soul and warms you inside like loving someone. It's never too late for you to do it..it's always been there no matter how bad you think for yourself.