Saturday, June 12, 2010

How Big This is Ate

Now see how big Shonax?..amazing right?


be healthy...ate loves you both<3

really, women are just fascinating!
why do she always compare everything she have done to me?
I'm MAD RIGHT NOW! I CAN'T HELP IT! IT'S NOT JUST THE SAME
THING THAT HAPPENS ALMOST EVERYDAY!..

why when at times she needed me to understand her - i did!
when I asked her to do the same - I'm freaking wrong TO ASKED FOR IT!

I understand what she do, even in the eye of the people around us
knew it was wrong! I still do..
You know perhaps I did not do the right thing,,because she always
know I will understand her, it doesn't matter if I get hurt by
what she wanted to do because I'm fine!
I'm fine because I love her..
although I tell her its not ok..she will still pursue to do it!

It's so tiring...
I'm very tired of letting her see her mistakes!
I'm so tired of being what I am to her!
what? she ignored me all the time..
she will just talk to me whenever she wanted it to be!?
Am I a computer that when you want to check your facebook
then you'll turn it on!???

I hope I won't be tired tomorrow..
I hope this is just a blast of something too bad that I
just can't handle..I hope I'm just wrong of saying this..
Cause if I'm not,.
something that took decade and years is starting to break..
I'm so helpless..

Friday, June 11, 2010

YUMMY ERASERS!!


while looking on raincoat in City Square department store,
we spotted this YUMMY erasers!! I really panicked along with
my 3 cousins and hell cj was laughing hard on us while
we scream on this little and seem-like true food!!
I bought 4 packs of this for P30 each!! not bad..
its a korean brand i guess..

it's been a long time since i do shopping for school supplies
on my elementary days..like memories come back when i was looking
for the best and the prettiest of all! hahahha so confusing!
now it felt abit tiring to choose...well i had fun though i wish i
will use all those haha...hayy college days!!



Thursday, June 10, 2010


on way back home pagkatpos mamalengke..

san kapa sira ang busina
ang signal light
ang ilaw sa kwarta..
at main light

nakita ni cj sunog ung fuse
hay malay ko ba dami alam nito sa pagkulikot at parts ng motor!
so he fixed it on the way pagbili ng ulam sa bhay..
good thing magaling xa dito ayun niresetahan ako..
wiring daw ang sira..

while waiting on our order, nakita ko to sa purse nia eh ang
wiggly ng bones na to
sabi ko arbor ayaw ibigay eh..bumili din nailcutter haha di kasi
tumatalab sakanya ung nailcutter ko for small nails lng kasi!


i was really reaallly hungry..
i remembered i dint eat lunch because i was asleep
puyat ba naman eh kagabi pa kay mama and tito jun..
i asked him to eat muna kahit abutin kami ng ulan sa daan
dun ulit sa King Fisher - affordable yet yummmmmy!!!!

the 3 sisters at bicolandia



its a super long story to write it down today.
perhaps a super brief story will help me(im having a lazy
night because i was tired the whole day)

Calai,Xin and Ashley was adopted today by tito popoy
and mama..from their irresponsible mother- who I know she
struggle to provide her children what's best but now she
has no capabilities to let these poor cousins of mine to
give education. So i think i will have the word "irresponsible"
for her..and now I don't know how she is but i am on this
a helper on what matter I can donate..

anyway today, we went on the "palanyag"..fiesta in daet is
near so there were stores in the road provide cheaper price
in clothes and other stuff you need just like fiesta in
every province.

Cj accompanied us today, we ride on motor one for me and for cj
so we can share the kids,.
ahhh finding uniform with right fit was not easy at all!
i SWEAT alot on ma face!! *didnt get my handkerchief - its a habit
after almost two hours we got everything we need for today
except for dinner..so me and cj come back again.


oh ha! finally balik school!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

REMINDER CRAMMING!!



OH HA?! MAGALING NA BATA!!
what can you expect..the'res only 2 checks there!
due to delays, rain, and undecidable ayan nagpatong-patong na lahat!

go pchan i know you can do it! favorite mo ang line na
"nick of time" hahhahaha!...

di ako busy promise!! :D

Happy Beerday Tito jun2x


haha i know he's drunk today..
he's suppose to be in Bicol today but we
understand where you want it to celebrate~

nakks!! ANGAT!!!!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Night out..

some of our friends and us cj planned to go swimming
tonight..bad news is - it rained!
although i really wanted to go, one by one they start
to cancel the plan..so instead sobbing around the house.
Cj asked me to go in Brickyard (beer plaza and restaurant).
I wanted to get out too..so we went there around 9pm with them.


funny was i saw my classmate before in ACLC..he was in the band i recall
last January he asked me to play gig with them on Brickyard every wikend..
and i rejected it because I can't play gig when I was on thesis period.

there they are playing, and although they gave wonderful music that night,
I was a lil bit bothered with those 2 girls vocalist..
well, i know its for entertainment but i guess i won't let my tummy show
it if i were singing in that band,.haha we'll have a big problem with that
for sure!!
all in all they we re great that night~
i love their energy and line-up songs!..

I didnt get drunk but the guys were..hahah
well its just a bottle of beer for me but unlike the
boys they finished the 4 bucket of beer (*uhaw eh!)
cj was not feeling ok anymore so we stopped and went home
aroung 12midnight and it was a bit scary!!
all the lights went out! blackout in camarines norte..
but on the way home it went on again.
we got home safely and i sleep! bow~

Excusesssss!!!!

I hate this word sometimes..

I hate how we use it to hide the truth..
I hate how we often use it for our own sake..
I hate how we use it to protect someone..

or maybe I'm wrong of this perception, but
one of those three is what I do most of the
time..to protect someone who might get hurt
If this is what we call "white lies" -
I'm also Guilty of this action.

My grandma said "when you make excuse, you lie"

There's no exception made for this, but we are
people who have this feeling of being protective
on what we believe is important and love. We battle
on everything even we know that it can cause our
own loss, self-destruction, be hated, be judged,
and even death.

Make an excuse in exchange of one's happiness.
Make an excuse to give a dream to someone.
Make an excuse to provide a better life.
Make an excuse to let go, to escape,
to move forward;
to learn;
to save;
to be better
even it will always HURT US.
WE WILL MAKE AN EXCUSE.

There are some who do this for their
own benefit. To hide what's truth and give pain to
others. It's the baddest part of this..giving
destructive pain for others for your sake.
THIS PART IS NOT WHAT I LIKE AND TEND TO DO.

Well, the ugliest part of making excuse is when
you can't tell the TRUTH because you're scared not
to be forgiven, you'll make things worse but most
of the times, making excuse is just putting more
load of pain and blow up everything worse.

We are always scared to be hated, hear words in a
disgusting way, be criticized on our mistakes.

But someone remind me today, having the courage
to say the truth even it contains the worse thing
ever to someone who REALLY REALLY TRUST AND LOVE
you, no matter what happens or how impossible it
will happen - he/she will understand and forgive
you. No need for more explanations on how you'll
be clean after you admitt your mistakes, the most
important part is what NOW, what you both had
been together..what binds you.
A lesson that gives your relationship in a much
tighter bond than before. And that there is a
word "no" sometimes...it's not always "ok".
There comes a time that you are in need of help
and don't pretend you can do it even in fact you're
helpless. You went down too sometimes.
And don't deny help from others to pretend you're
strong - I promise you it won't help at all!