it always gives me an uneasy feeking about promises
& destiny..the thing about those are it's very sacred.
uhmm...what you always desire may require this
factors.
for me promises:
..are special in a way when someone will tell it to me
it's always a 100% sure they'll keep it. no matter what
happens, whatever it takes - YOU JUST GOT TO DO IT.
..i once hate this, when mom told me she'll go home after
3 years staying in japan - i expected so much that turned
out to be hurting myself alot.
since then, i never give promise to someone if i knew myself
that i had a small doubt of not doing it.
as for destiny:
..it's unexplainable thing on me whether i believe on this or not.
uhmm maybe 50-50 if i rate it. it's soo very vast to analyze
how did some unexpected things that happened to me turned
out to be destiny without knowing why?..
im destined to be where i live now..
im destined to be separated with my friends and bandmates?
im destined to be this small?
im destined to be loved by cj?
i don't know? it's hard sometimes to rely on this 2, but i wanna
believe somehow..it's like a prayer sometimes..
you'll pray it so many times but you dont know when it'll be
heard by Him.
so this time of my life..whether my promises for everyone will
come true or what..i know myself im still the boss of it.
it'll never come true if i just think about it - I NEED TO WORK ON IT!
destiny is here i know..it's inside of me..and
I'M THE ONE WHO MAKES MY OWN DESTINY.
dont know how, or why but i enjoy my life as it is now.
whether it's destiny or not ^-^
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