am I not doing my best?

(L to R: emily,jessica, christian(yayu) and jenny)

lately as I look on my sister and brother's photo this question won't get off my mind :

AM I NOT DOING MY BEST TO BE THEIR ATE(sister)?

I don't know if I'm thinking too much or I just miss them or was it just I'm

shocked whenever I will compare their photos before and now.

They GREW up sooo fast - and I can't help to feel annoyed on how

I am thousand miles away from them and without knowing their likes and hates.

You can't help it right? I'M HERE, ALWAYS HERE - AND THEY'RE THERE.

Philippines VS Canada - that's far I'm telling you.

perhaps I think only for myself - I don't know.

I feel like whenever I haven't talked with them for weeks, there's always:

changes,

new attitude,

everything almost everything I will miss.

Now I'm not so sure if they trust me to be the big ate.

I feel like I'm not doing any special for them.

Arggggggghhh!!!!

Seriously I DON'T WANT THIS SITUATION!

I don't want them to feel I'm not there..at their backs.

helping on their homeworks, some facts need to know, artworks,

girl stuffs, hair styling, friends..etc.

I'M SORRY my little sisters and yayu if ate joy is always not there.

It won't be too long I'll be there...I promise to run as fast as I could just

to reach you where you guys are running now.

I just miss you all badly.

Ate Joy is tired now actually, if only you guys were here..this will be gone after

some hugs and kisses from all of you <3

I know and feel you guys are doing your best even its really hard to grow

right?..I know, ate knows it well. I promise to catch up as soon as I can.