Excusesssss!!!!

I hate this word sometimes..

I hate how we use it to hide the truth..
I hate how we often use it for our own sake..
I hate how we use it to protect someone..

or maybe I'm wrong of this perception, but
one of those three is what I do most of the
time..to protect someone who might get hurt
If this is what we call "white lies" -
I'm also Guilty of this action.

My grandma said "when you make excuse, you lie"

There's no exception made for this, but we are
people who have this feeling of being protective
on what we believe is important and love. We battle
on everything even we know that it can cause our
own loss, self-destruction, be hated, be judged,
and even death.

Make an excuse in exchange of one's happiness.
Make an excuse to give a dream to someone.
Make an excuse to provide a better life.
Make an excuse to let go, to escape,
to move forward;
to learn;
to save;
to be better
even it will always HURT US.
WE WILL MAKE AN EXCUSE.

There are some who do this for their
own benefit. To hide what's truth and give pain to
others. It's the baddest part of this..giving
destructive pain for others for your sake.
THIS PART IS NOT WHAT I LIKE AND TEND TO DO.

Well, the ugliest part of making excuse is when
you can't tell the TRUTH because you're scared not
to be forgiven, you'll make things worse but most
of the times, making excuse is just putting more
load of pain and blow up everything worse.

We are always scared to be hated, hear words in a
disgusting way, be criticized on our mistakes.

But someone remind me today, having the courage
to say the truth even it contains the worse thing
ever to someone who REALLY REALLY TRUST AND LOVE
you, no matter what happens or how impossible it
will happen - he/she will understand and forgive
you. No need for more explanations on how you'll
be clean after you admitt your mistakes, the most
important part is what NOW, what you both had
been together..what binds you.
A lesson that gives your relationship in a much
tighter bond than before. And that there is a
word "no" sometimes...it's not always "ok".
There comes a time that you are in need of help
and don't pretend you can do it even in fact you're
helpless. You went down too sometimes.
And don't deny help from others to pretend you're
strong - I promise you it won't help at all!